Ah so I was right okay
So well then I guess you are also probably your own worst critic?!
See maybe this can help a bit
Try to concentrate more on what you want to do, on what you want to write and that you have fun with it or try out some stuff that seems fun to you rather than on the expectations you have on yourself or the expectations you think are there but in reality are not.
Try to have fun with your hobby.
And I know that is sometimes not that easy and it is alright if it does not work out immediately but someday it might work out
*hugs you*
If you ever feel the need to talk to someone - I will be here.